Life's my cup of tea.

wildxcardx180 — Sun, 16 Aug 2009 04:09:01 +0000

Im not sure what to write about right now so I think I’ll just type on whatever I’m thinking about for a while and if something strikes me I’ll follow it so here goes. Summer vacation is an odd phenomenon for me; I look forward to it all school year and when it’s over I wish it hadn’t gone by so fast but while it’s happening it seems boring and slow like this horrible thing I jst want to go faster. I live in the middle of nowhere, all my friends live about 45 miles away, and I don’t have a car or anything so I really can’t hang out with anyone but my brother, who is a year younger than me, my sister, who is several years younger than me, and my dad who is an unemployed workaholic trying to remodel his dad’s old house so he can sell it and split the profits with his dad, my grandfather. Needless to say these are not exactly the three people I can just hang with and have a nice conversation or play with all day and not get sick of them. Anyways since I’m in the middle of nowhere there’s really not much to do around the town except like walk nature paths and I mean that’s cool and all but I’d rather have a frined when I walk. Thus I sit in my house trying to decide what I should do to entertain myself and I am terrible at doing this. You would think that since I’m me and all I would be able to know what I can do to entertain myself but I don’t so fail for me. OH! You know what’s really intersting? WEll obviously not because if you did you’d be psychic and I doubt you are. So gamer language. Now that’s interesting in a weird way. It’s like a fusion between common language and AIM/text speak. It’s interesting partly because of it’s use of words. For example fail is normaly considered a verb or failure a noun; however, as I have often heard from my fellow gamers in an epic game of Halo 3 it is used in the slightly barbaric language as a noun. ” God that was a fail.” “I equal fail.” all commonly shouted by me and my friends when we doing something really really dumb in game. Verb to noun and the game speak is full of them. I k they’re called gerunds. Anyways I find language evolution very interesting so maybe I’ll write something else about it in a future posting maybe explain what I just said in a better way so anyone who reads this isn’t totally confused.

On interaction.

wildxcardx180 — Fri, 14 Aug 2009 01:01:39 +0000

Substantive interaction on a more engaging scale is rather rare for me which is very, very bothersome for me. I hate the fact that almost none of my friends can carry a conversation. This is why I have started to only have conversations with people whom I enjoy talking to, which means that the only people I talk to now are my friends who can carry a conversation. Occasionally I will try to have a conversation with someone else or they will talk to me but I often find these engagements pretty unsatisfying. Either there is just nothing to talk about with the person because the are so completely shallow or it just ends up being me talking with occasional one or two word blips from them when I end a sentence. What is it about talking that prevents the larger portion of people I know from saying anything more than one or two word blurbs? Now this is more true of internet based chatting over various IM providers from Facebook to AIM but even on the phone or face to face this is true. My thinking on why it is less substantial over the internet is because of how impersonal it is. When you are chatting with a person over the internet you don’t see their face or body and don’t hear their voice. These are essential things to interation that bring a greater level of depth and inflection to things we say plus the other stimuli you are recieving from a person stimulates the brain’s mental connections related to that person bringing things that you relate to that person to your main conscious. Also while face to face silences and pauses in conversation can be gaps for things such as movement and physical interaction such as wrestling or other things so even when you’re not talking you are being stimulated with helps continue and enrich the engagement. Over the internet or phone on the other hand pauses are giant pregnant things in which nothing else can happen. But still though face to face interactions with people may be more satisfying in the end due , well, being face to face; conversations themselves are still rather dull with many people. Why? Why, why, why, why, why in the world can’t people acually try to take part in conversation? Perhaps it’s just me, I mean after all I am totally ADHD and need to be like doing something all the time and also I have no filter on most of my thoughts so I just say whatever comes to mind, but can’t the other person at least try to continue a conversation by suggesting new things to think and talk about? I’d say to anyone who doesn’t know how to hold a conversation just ask questions and answer them and when a tangent presents itself follow it and see what happens I mean this does require the other person to go with it but hey it’s worth a try right?

Reset?

wildxcardx180 — Sun, 09 Aug 2009 23:05:47 +0000

Well this thing started as a project for English and I didn’t really like it because it required me to write on specific things, like quotes from a book. I don’t really enjoy the analysis of books so often they were all terrible writing that no one would ever want to read. This being said I do think it’s good to write as it helps people, specifically me, to get things out of their head and perhaps alleviate all the tension in the brain that is a result of subconscious being, well, subordinate, or at least hidden and not fully expressed, to our conscious. Thus I have decided to delete all of my previous entries, well actually I moved them to a hidden file on my computer. Since no one reads this I don’t think it makes much of a difference but I felt I should at least say what happened to them. So from now on I write on whatever I feel like writing from short stories to poems or blurbs on music and life I think this will be more enjoyable now. Perhaps some people will even stumble onto this and find it interesting.